Bolale’s Shadows everlasting

    Bolale’s Shadows everlasting

          Bolale’s Shadows Everlasting

Oh! Why me?
Hmm, of everybody! Why me?
When I taught, I had just escaped this(my shadows) but none these of called “shadows everlasting.” 

This where the words of Bolale who became the foot rug for the hospital called “The reward come no matter what.”

This where the words of Bolale according to Doc. Eίkosi éxi, the owner of the hospital called “The reward come no matter what.” According to the Doc. Eίkosi éxi, Bolale case started two months ago.
Bolale got married 5years ago but just two ago her mother in law stormed into her matrimonial home because her union with her son could not produce anything not even a girl for the past 5years.

According to the Doctor, Bolale had made a confession in five different stages for the last two months in what the Doc. decided to title “Bolale’s Shadows everlasting“, he gave this title because Bolale’s case is one everybody must learn from because you cannot eat your CAKE still have it back.

Doc. Eίkosi éxi said “During  my conversations with Bolale, it was broken down into five stages within two months.”  Doc. Eίkosi éxi said:

Bolale’s  Shadows Everlasting

             Bolale’s Shadows Everlasting

STAGE 1
I didn’t notice that,
I didn’t see that,
I didn’t feel that,
It never happened,
I never saw my soul get ripped apart.

STAGE 2
Why me,
Why wasn’t it you,
What I have done wrong,
Why am I always the target,
Why didn’t it happen to someone else.

STAGE 3
IF i give you my hand will my eyes open,
If I give you my dream will I still see the world,
If I give you everything, will you go away,
Am willing, very willing to give it all,
To end the tales of my bad decisions.

STAGE 4
This ghost won’t depart from me,
The badgering demon of my past,
Soliloquizing the tales of my ending,
No more where to hide,
Than in this unholy sacrament of my mystery.

Stage 5
What has happened?
Where have I been?
Who is this new person?
Giving in to these new views,
Seeing through a fixed lens.

According to Doc. Eίkosi éxi, Bolale 5 years ago at her finals in the department Christian Religious studies & English language in a tertiary institution in the country called “Heart of African & also giant of African” (Nigeria). This Institute was located at the confluence state (Kogi State).
With a pure heart fell into the trap of a course Mate called “Joe”, who purposely took her note  for two without her knowledge then he informed her but claims to always forget to bring the note.
This led Bolale to his hostel where her bottled water was changed by Joe with a mixture of drugs & water.
    Joe was the jovial type & cracked jokes for Bolale as she left for her hostle then she suddenly fainted after taking  the water. Joe called for help & took her with other students assistance to his room under the cover up  that she needed inhaler.
Hmm, that was how Bolale lost her virginity then a month later became pregnant. She forced  by Joe to go for abortion & something went wrong (her womb was mistaken tempered with) had to be totally flushed out.

Poor, Bolale was not told because she luckily survived the operation. She taught this dirty past was over when at her convocation ceremony she met James who she got married to that same year.

But after 5 years she was still hunted, this we could see from the fourth stage of story which Doc. Eίkosi éxi told :

” STAGE 4
This ghost won’t depart from me,
The badgering demon of my past,
Soliloquizing the tales of my ending,
No more where to hide,
Than in this unholy sacrament of my mystery.”

Bolale is almost a walking corpse because after the two months period of torment from what Doc. called ” Bolale’s Shadows Everlasting. “ James ended the marriage saying “I taught it was Holy matrimony but it cursed matrimony for Life which I can’t continue.”

Now this where Bolale words:

” What has happened?
Where have I been?
Who is this new person?
Giving in to these new views,
Seeing through a fixed lens.”

Her last words were:

” Hmm, just like Doc. Eίkosi éxi hospital bears the name The reward come no matter what, I taught I could run from my past but they had become Shadows everlasting.

What if I had opened up on my pain, shame & past?

Would I have suffered this present fate?

Please, don’t keep your scars, let them out because there lies the life of your tomorrow but if you bury them like me then you might continually cry like me.

Please speak up today, no matter the past. “

   Don’t die in your past just speak up.

 

Source : Elkosi Exi master piece. 

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